My daughter has autism and I honestly don't know what to do anymore

I am going to try and make sure that this post doesn't get to ranty but if it comes off that way I apologize. Also I am VERY aware that autism is a spectrum and that I could be in a far more difficult situation than I am but just because I broke one arm and someone else broke both of their arms it doesn't make my arm hurt any less if you get my random metaphor.Now I love my kids I have a 6 yo who is not on the spectrum and a 12 yo who is.Now I am going to be honest with you guys and tell you that I never really believed that my daughter had autism. I argued with my wife, I argued with the doctors, I argued with the psychologists, hell I argued with autism specialist but I finally said" FINE, put her on medication but when she grows out of this I'm gonna be like I told you guys "Now I realized a long time ago that I was wrong but that voice was always there in the back of my mind saying maybe this will get better but as of yet it has not.Even sitting here writing this I feel like crap. I keep writing how I really feel then deleting it the writing something else. So screw it I'm gonna tell you my side and you can hate me or tell me I'm a bad parent or whatever I just need this out of my head and I can't say anything to my wife without upsetting her.Guys I'm tired, I'm tired of being patient. I do my best help but my brain doesn't work like hers so trying to explain anything is a thousand times harder because I have to try and find the way she best understands it.I'm tired of being worried all the time. I worry that kids at school are making fun of her and the worst part is that I know they are because she comes home and tells me stories about her interactions throughout the day and the other kids are making jokes about how weird she is and she doesn't get it but I do and it breaks my heart. I'm worried she isn't cleaning herself properly in the shower because more often than not she stinks. I tell her she needs to do a better job but everyday it is the same discussion. On top of that she has started puberty which doesn't help on the whole personal hygiene front. That's the other thing I feel like I'm the weirdest dad ever because I have to remind her to make sure she changes her pad and cleans properly. I have to watch what I say around her because she takes things literally. In the 5th grade a boy kind of liked her but she wouldn't talk to him because she was worried I would literally murder him based on some off beat joke I made about her dating.I'm tired of explaining to other parents and teachers that she is not FUCKING SHELDON COOPER from the big bang theory. If one more person makes this comparison to me I might lose control.I don't know I guess thanks for reading any advice on how to deal would be welcome. via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2u3qvsy