Monday, 2 July 2018

Who am I again?


My son just turn 1 and I feel like I've lost myself in being a mother. I'm a stay at home Mom and we have 1 car which my husband takes to work so I am limited to my little 1 horse town when it comes to doing things. It's pouring today so I can't even take him for a walk around the block to clear my head. I'm getting off track. Basically everything in my life is to do with things for either my son or my husband. Everything I do is for them and I don't resent them in any way but I just have no idea who I am anymore. Even if by some miracle I have time to myself I don't know what to do with it, I read books on being a better parent or I'll watch videos on things to do around the home to make life easier for Hubby. I just feel suffocated and it's not my families fault, I've done this to myself and don't know how to get back out. On the super rare ocasions I get to see my friends all I talk about now is my son or my husband because honestly I got nothing going on! I try to think back to who I was prior to and I was an alcoholic gamer. Drinking and gaming were my biggest joys. I don't want to go back to drinking it became really unhealthy and since I was raised by an alcoholic I couldn't do that to my husband and son. Gaming would be great but I can't really find the time to commit to a game. Is this loss of identity a common thing amoung new parents? Does it get better or is this just the new me now?Tl:dr since settling into a family I've lost my identity and don't know how to get it back or start making a new one without sacrificing time with my family via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2yXMSpX

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