Monday, 4 March 2019

My son is gonna need special help & it's clear to me now


My son is 2.5 years old. His mom & I have had our suspicions for a while but wanted to wait it out & see if he caught up. He didn't. We wanted to wait until a professional told us there might be an issue. They did. I in my "infifnate knowledge" of mental health causes and conditions wanted to wait until he started to display concrete symptoms of delay and or a disorder. He has. I love my son more than anything in the world & I hurt so bad right now. Not because of his condition or bécause he's gonna need extra help on things. That's fine, I believe in the process & I believe in him. He's a strong boy with a good heart & a curious mind. He'll find his way I know he will & me & his mom will be there every step of the way to support him in whatever he needs. I'm grateful to have such a physically healthy little boy with only minor roadblocks to his development. I mean that. I consider myself sooo sooo lucky to be his dad & I tell him that all the time. I think k what hurts so bad is I worry about him. When he get made fun of for being different. When the parents don't understand why he's overstimulated and literally can't just snap out of it & "behave" what if the teachers just think he's "lazy" "he doesn't look delayed, are you sure it's not just behavioral?" What if he's not resilient and brave like his mom & he's like me & takes it all in and it crushes him. What if he doesn't realize how wonderful he is & how much he's loved all the time? Of course these are all very selfish thoughts in my head that haven't happened or might not even happen. I know this a real "Cadillac problem" to have but the realizations very fresh & it hurts. I'm so scared for him. I can't show it though. Not to his mom & certainly not to him. I'll never ever give him the impression I think he's different or that he "can't" I'll stand by his side no matter what and do whatever it takes to makes sure he knows how much his family loves & supports him. If you're reading this thank you. I have limited support and needed to get it out some how via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2Uiq4aE

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