I think my mother is a narcissist and I don’t want her watching my baby

I’m 22, 4 months pregnant and an only child. I live with my (almost) husband and our lease is up in January, 3 months after we have our first baby. I was raised being watched by my grandmother on weekends, who is a narcissist 100%. She ruined my childhood and I spent years of therapy healing from the damage she caused in my life. Her mental and verbal abuse made me a very strong woman though. I’ve planned on letting my mom watch my baby while I work and just moving to a house in the area but I’ve noticed lately she’s been acting a lot like her mom. A lot. My mother is also bipolar type 1, and the thought of her having an episode in front of my baby gives me anxiety. I saw things as a child that I shouldn’t have seen because my mother is mentally ill, but she keeps it together 90% of the time.I’m having major second thoughts about her being heavily involved in my life and my child’s and I’m scared. I think it would be best if my husband, baby and I move closer to the major city that my husband actually works in. It’s about an hour away. He commutes in the morning because he got the job after we moved in where we are now, but it would be easier for him to just walk or take a bus downtown.My question, have any of you dealt with mentally ill parents? I’m going to try to find a job online or find a way to somehow survive off of just my husband’s income for a while because daycare is not something I want to do. I just feel so alone and scared. I just wish my mother was not like this 😥 my gut tells me to just move away but I’m scared I’ll fail without family to help. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2UYxsYX