Struggling tonight

This is just a vent post.In Dec of last year I decided to get fit. I'm the heaviest I've been and I'm really feeling it. My blood pressure is frequently borderline, I tire easily and my knees hurt. I was gonna lose weight, eat a better diet, exercise...I work at a new job with a gym on site so I was gonna take advantage of it. Every morning I got my kids (3yo and 1yo) up early enough to go work out before work started. Then summer rolled around. The sun was out longer and their sleep cycles got messed up.They don't go to bed until 930 or 10 sometimes. I can't do ANYTHING about it. Black out curtains, sound machines, being calm starting at 7 and calm baths don't help. It's like they somehow know there is still sunlight and they have to be awake and don't start winding down until an hour after sunset. Because they don't fall asleep until late, they wake up in awful moods at 530. So it takes almost an hour and a half to get them awake and to school (used to take 30 min). So now I can't exercise in the morning. I also can't exercise on my lunch break because I frequently have to go home and clean the kitchen on my lunch break from last night's supper. Why? Because my 3 yr old is demanding of my attention every second of every day. I can't do it after because I have to be the one to play. I can't do it at bedtime because my 3 yr old requires I be in there until he goes to sleep. Otherwise he'll be up until 11 crying. (Yes, I tested him one time.)And I ask my husband for more help but he's not the best at it. He'll do the dishware but not the pots and pans because we can "get that tomorrow". But then it is just something I have to go clean on my lunch break so we aren't spending another 15 min cleaning before we can cook supper tomorrow.I'm just really frustrated in life right now. It's hard when your cleanliness standards are different than your spouse's. It's hard when you can't even use the toilet without your kid having a meltdown outside the door because you left him. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2uXzrRF