Barely making it.

I'm a 37yo single father of 3 girls, ages 7, 4, and almost 2. My ex moved out in January. She visits the kids for a couple hours every week, but other than that doesn't help out. I recently also left my religion, which means that my family and friends have for the most part cut me off. My Mom helps out one afternoon a week - she helps clean up and catch up with laundry – I'm really grateful for that help. I work full time remotely from home - I'm caring for three kids while working every day. I can't afford childcare. I feel like I'm on the verge of total burnout. Finances are paycheck to paycheck, I'm barely keeping it together. Not totally sure how rent is going to happen this month, but I'm sure I'll figure it out.It feels like an impossible situation. Right now I'm trying to decide if I should go to sleep, or drink a red bull and try to work all night while the kids sleep so I don't feel behind tomorrow.On the plus side, my kids are great most of the time (the 4 year old is the hardest to deal with, but nothing unusual), my health is pretty good although I wish I could run or work out more, and my job is low stress enough that I can usually get everything done even if I have to work at night. My relationship with my kids has never been better. The house is much cleaner and more organized than when my ex lived here (she didn't clean and I didn't clean much out of resentment for the fact that she was doing nothing). We are eating better for the same reasons. We live in a good place.One thing that's hard is that I feel really guilty that the kids are having a boring summer - while I work they are basically stuck in the house. I spend the weekends taking them to parks and beaches, and in the evenings too, but it's still pretty boring for them. I feel like I'm wresting with anxiety and depression under the surface, although I don't have the luxury of having a mental breakdown. I should probably be in therapy but I can neither afford it nor do I have childcare available. I guess I'm just looking for some commiseration. Any single parents out there with advice? via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2O7nuS6