Trying to find balance with everything. Transitioning from at Stay at Home Mom for 6 years to working 12 hour shifts.

I'm one month into my new job, still in the probation period. The job is great. Not stressful, not too demanding work load. Great coworkers and boss. Not far from home. Long hours though. But lots of overtime means more money.I miss my kids. I miss waking up with them and snuggling in bed. I'm up at 2 in the morning and gone by 3. I don't get home until late in the evenings. I miss getting them ready for school and daycare. I miss taking them out for lunch and getting pastries or fun food. I miss teaching my baby how to walk, how to laugh at the birds. I miss making silly nonsense with my toddler. I miss having "girl talk" with my elementary schooler that likes to asks a million questions why.I miss having a clean house. Laundry all done. Dishes washed. I come back to a messy house. A tired and frazzled looking husband with burnt dinners. Kids eating candies or cookies for meals. I miss the simple little things I used to do every day. Making dinner for my husband. Teaching my girls how to bake or draw unrecognizable squiggly lines. Taking my kids for walks to the park or library. Finding a rolly polly or a snail on our trail.But I love my new job and the freedom. The freedom to clock in and out of work. To know that I get a paycheck at the end of the week. The freedom to turn down people's "favor" to ask of me because I am busy working. People tend to take you for granted because you are home and "free".My husband isn't really happy with my new job. He thinks the hours are too long. I can't even sigh at home before he goes on a rant about how tired I am and that I should quit. I should just stay home and watch the kids. He's already asking about my days off. I don't get weekends off. I take a weekday off so I can run errands and schedule appointments. What?! We can't go on a trip? No more camping or road trips? Why do I only get 7 paid holidays off throughout the whole year? So many whys?If you've read all the way down to here. Thanks for letting me get this off my mind. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/31uL0ha