Single mom who feels like she’s failing.

My ex husband and i split custody of our son 50/50. This week has been very trying for me. It’s been a whole year since i left his father. I’m not sure why but it’s causing me a lot of anxiety when i think about it. About where my life was a year ago compared to now.So this has been causing me to be a little more on edge and more prone to “snapping” because I’m frustrated. My son asked me this week if i was mad at him because he saw exclaim and shove a door open harder than i should have. He also told me i was making him sad the other morning because i snapped at him for not listening to me. It broke my heart. It hurt me knowing that my son thought i was mad at him. I apologized, although he is only 3 so I’m not sure if he truly understood, and reassured him i wasn’t upset with him.It was a good attitude check. But now that it’s Friday and his father has picked him up I’m sitting here feeling guilty. This week was hard, and i didn’t make it any better or easier acting the way i did. It’s hard to not let my anxiety get to me and cause me to get frustrated easily. I feel like i already miss so much with my son since i only see him every other week, and when i have bad weeks like this is makes me feel worse, like I’m ruining the short amount of time we have together.I’m sad tonight. I’m feeling incredibly guilty. I miss my son. This has been a hard week. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2BlSdFZ