Never wanted kids, but now I am raising one. I am in over my head and I thinks I made a huge mistake.

Story here us pretty simple. I am 31, I never wanted kids. A woman that I dates a while back got pregnant because of a condom failure. She decided to keep the child. We broke up because of it. I haven't had contact with her or the child since, but I have been sending monthly support payments to her address for the past 3 years as was agreed.A couple of months ago, she passed away in a car accident. The courts contacted me, because my name was on the birth certificate. In thier infinite wisdom, I am a valid option. I wanted to say no, but I have heard what a nightmare the foster care system is.I figured that even if I never love the girl(Lexi), at least I won't abuse her or do anything horrible to her.Since she has been at my place things have been hell. She won't sleep. She's 3 by the way. She has fits and screams at the top of her lungs when I try to put her to bed. She barely eats anything. She says NO, to everything. I got some books, but I can't make heads or tails of the psycho babble in most of them.I am on Reddit all the time, so I thought of come here for help.Did I make a huge mistake? via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2gwk9w8