I don't want to do this anymore

I have 2 daughters. 13 and 8. They are beautiful and wonderful in their own ways. Completely opposite. The 13 year old is introverted and on depression meds. She hates her sister and isn't a fan of me because I don't allow her to get away with things. The 8 year old is full of smiles and hugs. She also never leaves me alone. I'm fighting with the older and getting no space from the younger. I really do love them so much.But I'm tired. I'm tired of being a mom. I'm tired of not having space. I'm tired of them. I feel horrible to even say it.I remember a lady whom I babysat for when I was a kid. One day she told her husband she didn't want to be a parent and left. I always thought hoe crazy that was. And how could she feel like that....but now I understand. I don't enjoy being a mom. I don't want to play with them, I don't want to do anything with them. I want to do other things.Also my ex and I still live together because he doesn't have a job. It's rough all around.I just needed to let that out. I'm sure I'll go to hell for feeling like this. via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2xPPGEd