One and done due to financial constraints

Apologies fellow parents, but after the announcement of Royal Baby 2017/2018 I would like to write my feelings out. I should note that I have no ill will about other people having many children, but that my own circumstances and decisions forbid me from having more than one child. Note also, this is not a brag against other parents who are incapable of having their own or additional children.I have one child. I have always imagined, from a young age, that I would have two. My brother and I get on absolutely fine. I see little reason why it would be the same for my child. But there are two things that are stopping us having another child.The first is that my husband, who grew up with two siblings and never got on with them until they were all grown up and moved out, does not want to risk our child not getting on with a sibling. Fair enough, but there are ways and means to help siblings get on, and they wouldnt be stuck in the same room for their entire childhood like husband and his brother was.The other reason is purely financial. Yes we could save money by sending her to a state school, but both husband and I have been through that system, and overcrowded classrooms and overstretched teachers mean that children ultimately lose out- they lose their love of learning, respect for people in authority and bullying becomes a huge issue. I suffered with that, I dont want her to experience it. We can afford, barely, for her to go to a good school, but not if we have a second child. Our teacher friends who work in state schools tell us to avoid them if possible. So we are.So when I see in the news the celebration that their royal highnesses are having their third child, or I see someone I know is having another baby, I am irrationally jealous, which is unfair to them and unfair to myself because I cant let go of my own feelings.And my heart goes out to my friend, who's finished their last possible set of IVF for a second child and no success.I feel like I'm grieving for a child that will never be born. Does that sound wierd to anyone? Or is there someone out there that can empathise with me on this?Thanks for reading my story of self pity. I just wanted to get this off my chest.TLDR. One and done for mainly financial reasons. Pity party for one because I won't and daren't risk the happiness of my family for the sake of having my much wanted second child. via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2eWNKi8