I'm at the end of my rope here and I'm not sure what to do outside of going to my doctor to get meds (appt is actually for the 12th).I have a 3.5 year old son and a 3 month old daughter. I'm not sure if it's PPD or what but my son gets under my skin about EVERYTHING these days and it throws me into an almost uncontrollable rage when he does.He whines constantly and deliberately ignores me and tonight was no exception. I asked him to upstairs to use the restroom and I'd be right up to help him get ready for bed. His sister is already asleep for the night in the nursery so I asked him to be quiet. He whines and stomps that he doesn't want to go to sleep but my husband/his dad reasons with him and he complies. He goes up the stairs and I finish up what I was doing, and go upstairs myself. He's not in the bathroom or his room. Where is this kid? I found him in my room, on my bed, screwing around with the baby monitor. He knows he's not supposed to mess with it, it was expensive (video monitor) and I don't need him messing it up. I lost my damn mind. I don't know what came over me other than rage. I bellowed "NO" and practically tossed him out of my bed. I was not gentle. He starts to cry (understandably) and I make him go to the restroom, and send him into his room for bed. No snuggles, no book, just in bed and lights out. Honestly I'm surprised the baby stayed asleep through all that.This is just the latest example and it's been like this for the last month. I've lost my shit at him over kicking his bedroom wall and waking the baby, tonight's little incident, and other things. At this point I know he's got to feel like the most unloved little boy around. The fear in his eyes when I've done these things haunts me but I'm not sure how to stop. I'm crying as I type this because I know I'm supposed to be his comfort and his protection. I'm not like this with the baby, and I wasn't like this when he was a baby. I don't know what to do. via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2eyJJmV
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