I (26F) with bf (27M) 4 years. Unsure if parenting should be in our scope.

Little backstory - I grew up kinda rough & always was excited to be a parent because I've always been determined to be the best version of myself in all areas of my life. I love children & always noticed an extreme "motherly instinct" in myself, something my mother didn't necessarily have. I've been dedicated to do everything my parents DIDN'T teach me & have been very proud & impressed with myself with where I've ended up today.I (26 F) have been with my extremely loving, kind, patient and supportive boyfriend (27M) for the past 4 years. We've built a very strong foundation for a potential family. Financially stable, own a nice home, substantial savings accounts, retirement funds, minimal debt (home loan), we both work for really great companies, we are supportive of one another, we have healthy debates as opposed to any "arguments" (we have a very peaceful & respectful household). I think in every area listed above we have the ideal situation to raise a family for our age. However, like I said I grew up a little rough and through that I developed extreme anxiety. With anxiety comes incredible irritability at times that I've worked diligently to control. I love children, he loves children, we are patient and loving in every area... but I'm incredibly hard on myself to know FOR SURE if I can handle being a parent.Children are great, but they are difficult at times. My brother and sister have given me 3 wonderful nieces & nephews but they're all under 3 and their tantrums are outrageous. Today was a really challenging day for me as my nephew was screaming, crying, kicking his feet and fussing for a total of 2 hours. With extreme anxiety, my blood was boiling, my heart racing, I feel anxious and panicky and couldn't get out of my sisters car fast enough. I know this is a daily occurrence for most parents, and I don't want to make the mistake of assuming I have it all together and allow my anxiety to get the best of me when I can't calm my children down.There's no real escaping a child's tantrums and my boyfriend and I have built such a great foundation together that I don't want to think this is something we can logically have as our next step after marriage & completely sabotage all we've built because parenting is "too hard." Did any of you go through this prior to becoming a parent and was it easier when you became a parent?Tl;dr very great foundation with my bf, considering if children should be in our scope or not. Extreme anxiety that I have great control of, flares up immensely when around niece / nephews extreme tantrums. Is this normal? How do you decide if that's a sign that you should absolutely not be a parent or not? via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2vrPpFU