As I (42 make) just posted about my 19 year old in a relationship advise thread, he’s a good boy, and I love him dearly. My middle son is driving in a week, and my only little princess just turned 14.I was away on business in Hawaii for her birthday. I FaceTimed, all that, always txt and Kidd the kids when I travel. But this 10 day trip was hard on me with these milestones.Yesterday, the unthinkable happened. I walked in on my son playing xbox with friends, and he said “no, I told you, I can’t come over, I’m hanging with my dad... he just got home...”Then, an hour later my daughter, who just started high school, said “daddy, can FRIEND come over, she invited me to sleep over, but I don’t want to leave since you just got home, figured we could all watch a movie and she could sleep, here...”I have been a friggen mess ever since. I feel so guilty for being a shit to my parents, and never recall being that damn sweet to them at their age. Like, I have this new found, guilt. Haha. It’s so weird to describe, plus, lump this on... I don’t deserve these kids! What the good hell did I ever do?!?!Anyway, this was Friday afternoon, I’m I’m writing this with damn tears in my eyes, and can’t sleep.I want to talk to my parents, let them know I cared, did they know? Was it this hard watching me grow, and did I show that I didn’t give a shit about them while I did it, because I feel that way.I found myself just standing in my daughters door watching her sleep, wanting to tell her how amazing that way, how touched I was she said that without being told by me or mom.I just sat with my son while he binge watches some Netflix show. Just in silence, enjoying the pure fact that he’s just there.This kid growing up stuff is difficult. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2xn7rYS
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