As of tomorrow, I will have been a mom longer than my own mom was to me

My daughter turns 11 months old tomorrow. I was 11 months old when my mom decided she didn't want to be my mom anymore.Sometimes I wonder if I was just a terrible baby or something. I know that there were drugs involved and that was the biggest contributor, but I just don't understand.According to my two older brothers and my father, they split up and my mom told my dad to leave her car but take me. So he did. She ended up giving up my brothers about a year later and they lived with her mom their entire childhood.I don't get it. My daughter makes my day every single day. Seeing her smile, hearing her laugh, the way her face lights up whenever she sees me. I could never walk away from that. She's been teething and I don't get frustrated or angry when she cries, I feel sad because there's not much I can do for her and I know pain can be scary when you don't understand it.It's been over two decades and I just don't understand how or why my mom gave up on me. I could probably count on my hands the number of times I saw my mom when I was a baby. She says she couldn't deal with my grandma and that's why she gave up. I understand MILs can be a bit much, mine is. But I would never give up my daughter over it. I couldn't.I'm still just very confused and I felt like if any community on Reddit could understand, it would be this one. I was afraid to be a mom, what if I felt the same way towards my daughter as my mom did me? But as soon as my daughter was born my whole world just changed. She was and still is all the matters. If she grows up into a happy and healthy adult, I will be satisfied with my life. How on earth could anyone give that up? via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2zrKaqY