Lost my temper and yelled :(

Lost my temper and yelled :(We have a strict ‘no distractions’ rule at dinner time to give us a chance to talk as a family (no TV, no toys, no devices etc). My 5YO has recently been testing this boundary - for example dancing on his chair, trying to get up while still touching the chair to see if I will get angry etc. Anyway today in the middle of dinner he got up an walked over to his toys and started being silly and not listening. I reminded him of the rules and he said he didn’t care about the rules. Then he hid behind the sofa. This back and forth between me and him goes on for another minute and it’s clear he isn’t going to listen. I just blow up and yell at the top of my lungs “SIT DOWN AND EAT YOUR DINNER OR YOU’RE GOING STRAIGHT TO BED!” In complete shock (this is out of character for me) he tearfully comes back to the table. He’s sobbing and stuffing food is his mouth at this point and my wife is consoling him because he’s obviously shaken up.Nothing is said for the rest of dinner. Then I get him a Jell-O (we made it together earlier in the day) from the fridge and apologise for yelling but remind him why I was angry. We have a little hug and he has his dessert, but he still doesn’t say a word (he’s usually quite silly and playful).I just feel like such an asshole because he’s actually a really quiet and obedient boy and my wife and I are a bit worried about his confidence already because he seems to be very unsure of himself when around other kids. He’s also an only child, so this means even more time playing by himself or with me and my wife but we can be busy with our own work commitments from home these days. Ugh I just feel like I’ve undermined him completely. I feel like a complete failure as a father. ;(I’m not sure why I’m typing this. I just need to tell someone, even if a bunch of internet strangers (thanks in advance for listening by the way). What would have been a better way to handle my situation without yelling? via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2UEGv2y