Hey! Long post ahead. I think. So as I mentioned in the title, I feel horrible about this, have no idea who to talk to because I feel like no one understands the feeling which makes me feel like even a worse person. We have 2 boys (5.8 and 1.8) whom we absolutely love. I was never a kid person, but I wanted my own someday. If it matters, I had my first at 22. I usually shake this feeling off, but now it’s a little bit different. Little over a week ago we moved to my in-laws (who I really like) so the kids can spend time out playing. This is for a limited period of time and it's a full house. Our best friends don’t have kids and while I was talking with them this feeling that I’m talking about hit me reaally hard. I feel like I could do soooo much more if I didn’t have kids, especially now in this period of time. I could finally concentrate on learning what I’ve been hoping to have time for since I finished high-school, my relationship with my husband would be better because we’d have more time to each-other (of course that includes the sex part also), maybe I wouldn’t feel so angry and depressed all the time. And you know what’s worse? We have help with the kids! They occasionally go to their grandparents over the weekend. Why on earth do I feel this way? Is this normal? It honestly started after I had our second. He was a lot do deal with, crying all day, not sleeping, etc. But now it’s all good with him. Sure, he cries sometimes when I leave the room, but that’s okay. They are really good and fun kids to have. So that’s why I don’t get it. Why? I feel like I don’t even deserve them. And they don’t deserve a mother like me.L.E. We have a 2 year maternity leave here, so I'm home with him every day. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/3anKUNZ
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