I hate being a parent

I hate being a parent. Nothing about it gives me any joy. I tolerate my baby - I don't enjoy my interactions with her and feel like every time I do something with her, all it is for is to stop her from grizzling. I am struggling under huge lack of sleep and experience post natal rage fairly regularly. My mum just says I need to have more self control. To be clear, I have never hurt my baby and always put her in a safe place before taking myself away wherever possible. My husband knows and does his best to support me but he also has work. People keep telling me "this soon will pass" and "it gets better, I promise" but guess what. Pretty much every day that passes my resentment for her grows and I find myself more and more wound up. I'm under Maternal Mental Health for my area but its such insipid bullshit. My case worker hasn't really helped me at all, I've asked for help getting counselling but she has been no use at all - cant even recommend an affordable counsellor or help me set up a session. I just feel like I'm drowning. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/3axQ4GJ