Struggling with the way I feel

I am not sure if this is the right place for this, but here goes. I'm sorry if I suck at putting this into words.I am a mom of two boys who are both under 3. I have been home with them since the second was born. I am struggling more and more every day with everything. I hate how I feel. I don't want to leave the house, I don't even want to leave the couch. I have access to a gym with childcare but I can't manage to get myself there. I don't necessarily feel sad but I also never feel happy. I feel like I never get a break but my SO does so much already. He works an insane amount to provide for us, he comes home and cleans and takes care of the yard etc. I'm lucky to have him. Yet every day is the same, and I'm starting to feel like I'm failing everyone.I also feel like I don't contribute. I want to make money and do something with my life and right now I feel trapped. I have a career but can't go back at the moment.I guess what I'm asking is.. how do I get myself out of this? How do I be a better parent for my kids? A better wife for my husband? Is this just me being lazy? How can I deal with these feelings of not being good enough or contributing enough?I'm definitely not seeking medical advice and plan to see my GP. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/30a4KGJ