I wont draw this out, and I obviously am unsure of what I'm doing if I'm posting it here.I'm a 25 year old guy, with a 5 year old son, whos mom left "officially" when he was 3.She had been in and out since he was 7 months old, and then finally moved 8 states away from us. My family helps take care of him while I'm in college and working, but the longer I'm away (I live 1 state over) I feel myself being detached, and though he's only 5 he has a TON of friends at my parents whom he misses when he's with me.His entire life is based at my parents, and when I pick him up he has no interest in me and constantly asks when he's going home. I was medically diagnosed as being manic (Bi-Polar) when I was 21, it's not overly severe where I can't function, but it causes insane mood swings and it leaves me struggling to properly parent when I have him.He was the result of a 1 night stand, which is obviously my own fault, and I know society believes I should put him before myself, but I can't do it...I can't rationalize living a life I never wanted and potentially wasting the only life I have.I love him, but I lack the ability to care at this current time, if that makes sense? I'm financially stable, college educated, and I know what I want in life and this isn't it.I expect blunt and rude responses, my goal with this is to just maybe find someone who's done this or thought about leaving completely. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2FWVyhd
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