How did you get over your fear for another baby?

3 days ago i posted "what i've learned with a colicky newborn" and it got up to 650 upvotes, thank you. At least it feels like i did something right hehe. And also, i'm sorry for not answering all of you, there were alot of messages. But i did enjoy reading them all!Now my problem. After going though hell with my baby crying all the time due to gass and reflux and maybe migraine(???) Because this went beyond crying because of being gassy, i'm scared of babies. the hospital where he went 2 times because of his endless crying just brushed it of to being gassy what lead me in getting no help from them and had to figure everything out for myself and feeling crazy all the time. My husband is moroccan (born in the west though) and in his culture there should be at least 2 kids. He can not live with one kid as he grew up with multiple siblings. I was a only child so i don't really know how it is to have siblings. Now i was okay with it, at first, and i still am. But....i think i got traumatized by having my first. He's not so much of a talker about it. He understands that i am scared and understands that i want to wait at least 2 years before going for another one, but at the end of the day there HAS to be another one at one point. As i said i'm okay with it, but he doesn't understand exactly how afraid i am. I don't know if i can handle it if it would be another baby crying all the time. I never told him but there were multiple times where i had dark thoughts while the baby was crying in my ears for 20 HOURS STRAIGHT!!!!!!! 20 hours! I legit counted...And no sleep... at all ...for 3 months...i got scared, so scared to be left alone with him. My husband could not leave the house at all. I didn't want him to. It would have been irresponsible to be left alone with my baby as i was about to lose my mind. I know some of you probably think how bad of a mother i am for the thoughts that i had, but i never did anything with it, i was just losing it with the non stop crying, lack of sleep and depression. I never ever hurt him, and never wanted to either. That's why my husband had to be with me all of the time. Now that everything has calmed down and i'm enjoying my baby and every milestone he's taking i can imagine having another one at some point but my fear is eating up on me. I'm looking for advice. Or parents who have went through this and still decided to go for another one. How did you get over your fears, and how did baby number 2 turned out? I think i might consider therapy, i don't know. Being scared of babies sounds so silly...but it is what it is. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/3bs1tIm