I'll preface this by saying I'm not sure it's advice that I need but rather a pep talk? Or just to know that I'm not alone!I'm a SAHM to a 2yr old boy and 22 months pregnant, recently started working 15hrs a week from home and I'm trying to organise the house/baby things before Christmas/March (when I'm due). On top of that I'm cooking for the family everyday, in charge of cleaning everything downstairs (my partner covers upstairs as per our deal regarding housework) and it all just feels never ending.I'm just shattered. Both Saturday and Sunday this weekend I ended up falling asleep in the afternoon without really planning it. I don't feel well rested when I wake up - I just feel bogged down by what needs to get done that day.It's really starting to affect my moods and I'm noticing myself get snappy with our son when he's being irritable or a handful which can be often lately.Just small things like him repeating a word or phrase over 10 times and needing me to repeat it back to him every single time. Or getting upset about the prospect of being left to play with toys independently. It's starting to drive me round the bend and I usually have almost unlimited patience for him as he's a wonderful boy and very well behaved 95% of the time.My partner works long hours though he works from home so I do get help from him particularly in an evening. There's not really any help available from family though as my Mum is still working full time and I feel bad asking her to have my son for a weekend so I can get on top of things because I know that she has full on weeks and to then be looking after my son means she doesn't get a rest all weekend. He probably goes over for the weekend maybe once every three months.We're also not currently in a position to afford childcare, even part time.Writing it all out makes me feel really guilty - I love my son so so much but I'm finding myself looking forward to nap time and bedtime which makes me feel just awful. And I know there are people out there who are way more stretched than I am with much less help so that makes me feel worse - like I can't cope.To be fair on myself - there are some days where I feel like I absolutely knock the whole parenting/being an adult thing out the park. I taught my son the alphabet last week and it seems to have stuck which makes me heart absolutely burst watching him learn so eagerly.Other days, like today, I just want to nap and to have the week to myself and it gets me down knowing that I'll never get that, not for years. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/33I9fuA
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