Backstory: Fiancé [29M] and I [24F] have been together for over 5 years. We have a 1.5 and a 2.5 year old together.We had a rough weekend overall. Fiancé’s drinking has been out of control. I haven’t had a drop of alcohol this weekend because I knew that I needed to be in control for our kids.Fiancé lost his Fantasy Football for the week. He drank approximately 15 beers and half a bottle of wine in a 10 hour period (10 AM-8PM). He mowed a few lawns for money earlier in the day, and had been watching NFL football since 1 PM.I needed to take a shower, wash my face and change my clothes at 7:30 PM because I hadn’t had a second alone all day. Between watching our kids, cleaning, laundry, getting everything ready for his job tomorrow, grocery shopping, and making dinner I was exhausted. I needed a second to unwind.Fiancé agreed to watch 2.5 year old. 1.5 year old had gone to bed already. I did what I needed to do in the shower and bedroom. I come out to a war zone.I walked into him throwing our plastic Halloween pumpkin on the floor repeatedly. The remote control was broken on the floor. Chairs were knocked over, his work bag’s contents were scattered around the living room and our kid’s toys were busted and laying on the ground.Our 2.5 year old was clearly confused, scared, and kept repeating “Da da da da da?”HE. HAS. NEVER. ACTED. LIKE. THIS. IN. FRONT. OF. OUR. KID. BEFORE. I was stunned. I didn’t say a word and cleaned up everything. I cuddled our toddler until I knew that she was fine and comfortable again.I asked him how he could do this. He said very slurred, “I’m mad that I lost Fantasy Football. Can you take me to bed?”I tucked him in, and now he’s passed out.I already feel alone in parenting. I feel alone in my relationship. I feel like I’m the only one that wants to be sober and do my best to raise the kids. I’m just angry and sad. That’s all. I know our kid and my fiancé won’t remember this night, but I will.It’s tough knowing that I just had to have that shower. My shower cost my child a traumatic memory. It kills me. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/30Fzvn0
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