Breaking the cycle is hard

So last night my wife and I were playing a board game with our two kids. At some point we lost track of whose turn it was. My youngest who just turned five pipes up and says "It's the angry guy's turn". We all knew exactly who he meant. I am the angry guy. I grew up with an angry dad with super short fuse. My dad wasn't mean, he wasn't abusive, he provided for us very well, took us on vacations etc but he had a short fuse and got angry very easily.I was an angry child and an angry teenager. But as an adult I became way mellow and chill person. But somehow having kids and the pressure to provide for them is bringing out my angry self that has been under ground for 20 years, especially with my older kid who is very much like my younger self. I am trying to be chill but it's hard.I think I am doing well on all other aspects of child raising...I come home early so I can put the kids to bed most nights, do the drop offs to school, stay involved at school and in their sports teams etc. I just can't control my temper at home.Last night it really hit home...1st time since I became a dad that made me think maybe the kids will be better off if I wasn't as involved as much as I am. (My dad worked a lot so my day to day interaction with him was limited especially when I was super young like them). I've been pretty confident about my ability as a dad up until this point...but now I am not sure. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2XwklyD