After writing the title, I giggled then debated whether to change or not. I think I won't but I may regret this later.Anyway. I'm not sure how to explain this, though I guess the title is pretty clear. I feel alone, I guess? I have yet to tell anyone in real life because I'm not sure how to even preface this, and I feel like this could be controversial but I wanted to let it out, somewhere. Sorry I chose this website.My daughter was officially adopted in August, she's 2. We bonded pretty well while still in her country of origin, but now we're home and it's all different. Different people, different environment, different climate, just me and her as opposed to many caregivers and dozens of kids. It must be overwhelming for her. Well anyway one day before bed, she was drinking from her bottle and was completely pressed against me. We couldn't get any closer unless she was aiming for osmosis but she got really frustrated about it, kept on pulling on my shirt, and my first thought was, she wants to nurse? Bedtime was never easy and we're co-sleeping but maybe she needed more? So there I was "breastfeeding" my 2 year old adopted child, not an ounce of milk in my breasts. It only lasted a minute and she fell asleep. And I've been doing it every night since, she drinks her bottle, I then "breastfeed" her, and she falls asleep.Sorry, this post sounds more like a confession, which it kind of is because I don't know who to tell this to and I know it's not common, hence me being paranoid about the backlash but I needed to tell someone. I hate myself for feeling so much shame since to me, breasts are a source of nourishment and comfort but doing this in a country where breasts are seen as more, makes me all secretive about it and I hate that. I don't know. Thanks for listening to my random rambling confession mess. via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2e67VNp
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