Parents of adult children

My emotional state is pure crap lately. I'm fighting off depression like I haven't had to deal with since I was a teen, and a large part of it stems from my 18 year old daughter. I need advice, support, ideas...anything.She was an honor roll student throughout her school career. She was awarded an academic scholarship, but decided not to go to college. This hurt my heart so bad. But the thing that hurts the worst...she decided to move clear across the country with her boyfriend. They have no plans on ever moving back to the area. She's happy she says.She had every opportunity given to her. She started dating him in her sophomore year of high school. As soon as they started dating, everything went downhill. She stopped participating in school sports and dance line. She quit the volleyball and softball teams.What broke my heart the most was that she dropped out of her religious classes at our church. She had always loved going to church and had great friends in the classes. She informed me about a year ago that she no longer believes in God. Her boyfriend is atheist. Shocker.The reason they moved all the way across the country is because her boyfriend liked that area, and weed is legal there. He self medicates with weed for migraines. I don't really have a problem with that in and of itself, but moving across the country for it seems extreme.He just has no ambition to be anything but a bum in life. His plan was to just take off for the west coast with a backpack and nothing else, and he wanted her to do the same. I at least was able to talk them into making sure they had jobs out there and an apartment to live in.I'm just feeling so totally and completely rejected by my beautiful baby girl. Everything we tried to instill in her is gone. No goals. No God. No ambition. No family. She rarely calls, and only texts once in a while. She's only been gone for 4 months, but I feel like I've lost my child forever.I know a lot of my thought are probably irrational, but I'm in so much pain I can't think straight. Advice please? via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2e8NwlJ