just wanted to vent today

I’m a mother of 2.I work full-time, in IT as a systems administrator for a large scale company and therefore I am busy.I also work 1.5 hours away from where we live, so my commute is long.My husband works 15 minutes from where we live and is a network engineer.My day starts at 4am. I check in with my servers. It’s 5am, and I start getting ready. I get my kids ready at 6am.We’re out the door by 7am. My husband is still asleep.I drop one off at school and second at daycare.I go to work.I leave at 4pm to pick my kids up before 6pm,My husband will text: “I might be working late.”I get home at 6:30ish. Make dinner. Clean up. Give baths. Homework.It’s 7:30pm and my husband gets home.At 8:30pm, the kids are asleep. My husband asks for dinner. I usually have leftovers for him.I do a quick clean up on both floors. It’s 10pm and I shower, check some work stuff. My husband has been working on his hobby stuff since after dinner.I shower and watch Netflix until 11pm and I fall asleep.I still wake up for my littlest one throughout the night.I constantly fight with my husband about how I feel like I do so much more. We haven’t had sex in MONTHS because honestly? I just don’t feel it anymore. The honeymoon phase ended after my last child. I don’t know what to do. He says I have to tell him exactly what to do but I don’t think I should have to tell him how to be a parent, how to do a dad.What do I do? I don’t want to live like this anymore. I rather he just leave because he wouldn’t even make a difference if he left; he doesn’t do anything anymore.Anyways, just wanted to vent. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2NevKkE