I had my first 3 years ago, and my youngest 1 year ago. Me and my girl moved away from LA to try and make things a little more financially easier for us about 2 years ago.Now don't get me wrong at all: I love my kids to death. When I am home, I am always with them, and their constant curiosity makes me smile to no end. There is nothing I wouldn't do for them.That is when I am with them. When I leave for work, or at night when they're asleep, pretty much when I have any alone time, I get depressed and I remind myself of my old life, living in LA: Being in a band, playing shows, having a huge social circle, being apart of a thriving music scene. All my closest friends and family I left behind in LA.Where we live now, I have no friends at all. I tried starting a new music project to no avail, the chemistry is always off. And I have no family around; the one time we went back to LA my family was complete strangers and just scared my eldest, and that kills me. All my life is now is work and home. And the overnight shifts I work don't help these thoughts; they're generally slow, so I have a lot of downtime.So my personal life has been lacking since parenthood. Anybody else in a similar situation? Advice?...and please, I don't want to hear "well that's parenthood!" or "you're a dad, that's what your life is now" or anything like that. That's all I get from people like my coworkers and that really doesn't help at all. That's very dismissive advice. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/36nSsP7
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