Thursday, 25 July 2019

Was I in the wrong to let my baby cry intermittently throughout the day?


Last night I felt kinda funny after dinner. I did the nightly routine and put the baby to sleep. Then went to play my usual 4 hrs of PS4 before bed. Well about 2 hrs in I started to develop the familiar pulses of a headache so I turned in early. Well I woke up the following day and the headache was still there but pretty mild. So I did my usual fight a migraine routine. I took my allergy medication with a tension headache medication. I have breakfast and make sure I drink plenty of water. By the time I finish the bottle I am hazy. The light was starting to bother me. So I knew it was going get bad. I usually try to relieve the headache by cracking my back and neck so I do and go about my day.After chores and feeding the baby lunch I find that the headache is worse and figured it was time for me to eat. I eat and it hits hard. Sound and light is staggering. I leave the baby to throw up. The vomit was coming out so hard that I pissed myself. So I hop in the shower not only does it clean me it also soothes me while I sit and soak up the heat for 10-20 minutes. It goes on and off exactly like that 5 more times. (Now mind you I have literally no one to call in times of need like this. I can beg my fiance as much as I want to come home but he is running on little sleep and needs to work to pay the bills.)The first 2 times my baby is content in his play pin with his snacks. The last 2 he wasnt. So when its near his bed time we do.out nightly routine and he just fell asleep. I felt it come in one last time and I had to be quick. I scooped the baby up to put him in his crib. He wakes up unfortunately. "Sorry I cant stop for you right now." I run to vomit and piss myself somemore. (In order to give some context we live in a townhome and I'm connected to a neighbor on either side. The babys crib is up against the wall of this neighbor.)I'm in the shower when I hear over my babys screams that my neighbor is stomping hard down the stairs. I hear her front door open and slam. There is a moment of silence before I hear her banging on my door like a mad woman and riling my dog up which further upsets me.I obviously didnt answer the door. What would I say to her? I am sorry I am having a sick day. Vomiting so hard I piss myself? That I am sorry my baby is fed, has a fresh daiper and clean onsie but needs me and will cry the moment I leave the room? I mean come on. Was I in the wrong? Should I have my baby with me in times like this? I feel him being in the safety of his crib was best while I am in a moment of vulnerability. I'm a first time mom and do what I can when I can. I get these sort if migraines once in a while so any advice as to how to better this sort of situation would be very useful for future reference. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2ye9JKs

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