Quarantine made me realize that I want to be a stay at home mom.

I never thought I would want this. Every since my daughter(8) was born I have been working my ass off. I have never been in a situation where I could stay home. Her father wasn’t financially responsible and we were young when we had her. I have always worked 9-5 and even two jobs at the same time to provide for us. We weren’t dead broke but we were paycheck to paycheck. After our divorce I definitely had no choice but to work to provide for us. I had us covered bills paid food on the table but it was still tough.Before the shut down I was working 40+ hours managing a real estate team and listing manager along with working with my own clients. Work consumed me. Although I am finally not living pay check to paycheck. I am exhausted. Sometimes I’d go a month without a full day off. Regardless I still have responsibilities to handle everyday like homework, dinner, cleaning laundry and bed time. I swear I am going from 7AM to 10PM.I recently bought a house and my boyfriend moved in with us. I finally feel like I can relax. I have a partner. I am not alone anymore with the weight all on my shoulders.I have been home now for a month. My work has slowed down like crazy. Now I have enough time to keep up with everything. I feel so much better and not so stressed. This is what I want. I have my real estate license so I can choose to on work my own clients and be on my own. I have been terrified of doing this because I had to provide but I don’t have to worry about that any more!I have made the decision that by the end of the year I am branching out on my own so I can be home more, less stressed and not so overwhelmed. I have some one who is willing to support our household and me. We are planning to have another child so this feels like the best decision. I don’t have strive to survive. It’s a fucking wonderful feeling. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2RRM6Si