How to deal with guilt

I wasn’t a great mom in the first 2 years of my child’s life. I was easily frustrated and stressed, had no help from my husband, and I fought with him on a regular basis. I yelled at my daughter and occasionally slapped her when she threw tantrums. I know it was wrong, and I no longer do that. I already know how shitty I was to do that. I didn’t have the perspective I have now. Now my daughter’s in school which has made me less stressed. We have also moved to a better location where we can get out much more. Back then we were completely isolated. I know I’m going to get a lot of hate for posting this but I need to vent. I don’t mind whatever opinions you have. I just don’t know what to do with the guilt. I think about it every night and I feel horrible that I acted that way. I pray that I haven’t damaged her and that if I did I can change things by being a better mom now. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2Ku4mxs