Am I doing this right? Mommy of an 18 month old and 2 month old, feeling like a failure.

I feel as if chaos has surrounded me and I’m losing control of everything. I love my boys- but so many things are going wrong and I’m afraid I’m screwing It all up. My first child was a good baby, and I didn’t realize how good I had it. He ate well, slept well, even hung out by himself (didn’t need to be held much). Second child is now 2 months old and doesn’t eat well, spits up most of his bottle and then screams for about 30 minutes before each nap, and in the end I just hold him because I feel terrible and I’m so exhausted from the screaming. I’ve tried three different types of formula, the next option is going with soy. My 18 month old doesn’t even listen to me, and honestly, I don’t know how to discipline him so I just let it happen. My life motto right now is “whatever is easiest” and that makes me hate myself. I don’t even leave the house because the energy it takes to get everyone together and out the door isn’t even worth it. My husband is a great helper, and we are both giving our all... but it is depressing every morning for the past two months that the cycle has continued and I feel like no progress has been made. I wish my 18 month old would play by himself and be nicer. I wish I could figure out why my 2 month old is crying so much and what formula is best for him. I’ve made a doc appointment, but it’s still frustrating in the mean time.All this to say, I’m a tired mommy and I’m scared I’m just screwing this whole thing up. I don’t even feel like a mom... I just needed to vent. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2Ce6CEl