I am in a spiral

I've been a stay at home mom for eight years. Yes you read that right. Eight. Due to lack of flexibility in my husband's schedule and three kids at three different schools all out of district. Tuesday my youngest starts kindergarten. Essentially, I will be able to work.I am essentially frozen with anxiety and depression. I have no one to talk to, I don't know my "what's next". My mom passed away three years ago, so I can't ask her or mourn this season with her. No one really understands. I was a hairstylist prekids and don't like it enough to go back per say. My husband is extremely supportive, encouraging and understanding. I just don't know where to start or what to even think I am just lost. If anyone has advice for me please. 😭 via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/30zCvlk