
Howdy folks. Just wondering how other people handle a bad day when they're running mental movies in their mind as they try to go to sleep.Yesterday I had a crummy day at work, I've been under the weather for a while, I have a huge cut in my mouth that is a massive pain and makes it hard to talk/eat/drink/breath, and it's been raining for about two weeks straight. By the time I picked the kids up from daycare I was running on fumes. I'm usually super happy-go-lucky and playful and loud and sing & dance a lot with the kids and am generally a big goofball. But every now and then I'll have a day like yesterday when I just don't have the steam to do all that stuff so I feel like this stoic shadow of my normal self. I know we're all entitled to "bad days" and all but for some reason this type of thing REALLY weighs on me.I've conditioned myself into this "treasure every moment" mentality so much so that when I have a day like that and I'm just trying to survive the day ... at the end of the night when it's just me and the kids are asleep, I absolutely beat myself to hell and feel genuine sadness in the depths of my stomach for having missed that time with the kids. I missed a chance to crack a joke. I missed a chance to do some crayons. I missed a chance to wrestle on the ground. I missed a chance to snuggle on the couch. I missed an infinite opportunity of memory making moments all because I had a bad day?I know on my deathbed I'd gladly live a lifetime of "bad days" to have just one more standard, run-of-the-mill evening with my kids. Even typing this out right now is making my hands shake and my jaw hurt from sadness. Sigh.What do you all do? How do you handle bad days? How do you handle missed opportunities? How do you handle the retrospective breakdown of your day when laying in bed at the end of the night saying to yourself: "C'mon man. You're better than that. Try harder. Do better. Be better. Time flies. You've got to cherish every single moment!"Well, thanks for listening. Hope y'all have a great day! via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2XgtcWs
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