Starting daycare soon and heartbroken

My baby boy was born in August and I’m coming to the end of my FMLA. I requested more time off unpaid but was denied, so I have to go back in November.During my pregnancy, I visited several daycares and settled on one that was FINE but not POSH because it offered part time options. Many of the POSH options don’t offer part time.I visited my chosen daycare this morning and now that it’s so close... it just seems so inadequate. I mean it’s fine but the toys are old. I’m not sure they’ll feed my baby the WAY I want him to be fed (I know he will be fed, obvi). And I’m not sure it’s a loving environment. But it was what we could afford with me wanting to go back part time.Am I selfish to have turned down the full time posh daycare? It would have meant me working full time because it cost more than our mortgage. Or did I make the right decision by choosing an obviously lesser daycare so I can stay home 3-5 days out of 7? I’m just agonizing over this. 12 weeks is still so so little.Edit: And I have to work some, because my husband doesn’t get insurance through work. I have to work to pay for it on the open market (which is so expensive!!). Honestly, if he had an insurance option, I’d just plain stay home. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2ONBQLm