I have cried much tonight. My woe is poop. And toilets. And diapers. Not sure if this really fits here, or somewhere for caregiving, or bowel disorders, or what. But I'm a mom and my kid is part of my shit problem so here we are.I have been a full time caregiver for my husband who has a debilitating bowel disorder. We talk about poop, examine fluctuations in poop volume and density, eat a special poop diet, and the poop has kept him from working since November of last year.I have also been helping out with his 94 hear old grandma, who lives in assisted living but is still very active with the family. Which is awesome! But twice this week I have been on the shitty end of her recently developed butt incontinence. Saturday, I had to help her clean up a geriatric blowout before her hair appointment. Tonight, she took a giant dump in the bathroom before going home and I found it unflushed and un-toilet papered.To top it off, my 4 year old has been leaving a wet toilet seat behind the last couple of days. I thought he was having aim issues as he sometimes tries standing vs. sitting when peeing. Tonight at bedtime he arrived from the bathroom soaked in water. It finally clicked. He's been playing in the toilet. Splashing himself with toilet water. Whether pre or post deposit, I don't know. I kept it together through bedtime, got him dry and in clean clothes (although I just realized I totally spaced having him re-wash his hands and now it's 1:30 am and there's nothing to do about that aside from feeling like a crappy mom). But after tucking him in I went outside to smoke (I'm a closet smoker. Sorry. I know it's rancid and fills my lungs with shit.) and cry. I feel like life has defecated on me figuratively and literally and I am losing the last sliver of sanity I have.I needed to vent to someone who isn't a party to depositing brown sludge on my existance. Thank you for reading. May your toilets be clean, your Depends be empty, and your children have an affinity for soap. via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2ehzf8m
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