Got triggered tonight...

Not sure what kind of support I'm looking for here, but I think I'm looking for others who can relate...I'm having a baby next week. I'm booked to be induced on the 12th. Tonight I was at Women's Assessment because I thought my waters had broken (36+5 weeks).I was sitting in the waiting room, alone, trying not to pay attention to the women in various stages of labour who had their partners present and actively supporting them; rubbing their backs, timing their contractions, asking what they needed...I got triggered. My ex, who has barely been there in our son's 22 months of life and who has had very little interest in this pregnancy once he found out this baby is a boy too, is currently in another state trying to get custody of two children of his ex that he hasn't seen in five years. He hasn't bothered much with his own son despite my efforts to encourage a relationship, and I'm sitting there alone preparing to have his baby, but he can fight for two kids that aren't his own?It's not even a question of biology. My own Dad is not my biological father but he's my Dad in every way that matters and he's Pop to my son. If my ex had made an effort with our son, I'd be right there supporting him.But it hit me; my son's father is no father at all, and I'm doing this alone.I mean, my family is supportive and very involved in my son's life, but realistically he has one parent.Despite my best efforts to teach him otherwise, my son calls me both Mum and Dad and calls his father by his first name. Doesn't that kinda say it all? via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/33R2XIk