Any advice for a first time mother with a history of PPD/PPA on having a second child?

I always had trouble with depression and anxiety as a teen and young adult. Only in my late twenties did I start to feel more comfortable in my own skin. When I had my son at 31, I got terrible postpartum depression and anxiety. Getting through each day was a huge struggle, to say the least. I was having suicidal thoughts until my son was 4 or 5 months old. I was scared of who I had become and desperately did not want to be that person anymore. The thought of someday having a second child absolutely terrified me and brought on waves of anxiety.However, now that my son is 14 months old and I am feeling mostly fine, I have started to want to have a second child. Probably when my son is around 2 years old we will start trying. But I’m scared. Am I making a huge mistake? I’d like to hear from other moms and dads who have gone through PPD/PPA and have gone on to have more children. How did you cope? Did the anxiety and depression come flooding back, or is that not necessarily the case? Was it easier or harder? I would love to hear anyone’s experiences. Thank you! via /r/Parenting http://bit.ly/2wigcDn