I hate my baby

I don’t want anyone I know to know I feel this way, and I don’t think this is the right place to post this but I don’t know where else.I hate my baby. Proper, deep hate. I want her to grow up safe, and loved, and I’m doing my best for her. I’m breastfeeding and everything. She’s well looked after.But recently, there’s been this growing sensation of deep resentment. I wish she hadn’t been born. And most recently, every time I look at her, I feel nothing. I don’t want to see her.Every week I go to college (uk) two days. I do a science course, which i love. And at the end of every day, i consider not going back. Leaving my baby with my mum, and running away.I don’t know what to do! I want to love her, but I can’t! It’s not an option to have her adopted, as my family is not accepting of that. It could kill my already frail father.I hate my baby, but more than anything, I hate myself because of it. via /r/Parenting http://bit.ly/2FRKTWV