Should I get help?

This is yet another ‘I hate parenting but love my child’ post. She is 7 months.Not surprisingly, the worst part for me is the grating, obnoxious crying in the middle of the night. It becomes an hour long ordeal of calming her back to sleep. This happens a minimum of once per night going on 4 months now. Prior to this she had a solid month where she was actually sleeping through the night and it was amazing. But, she had a regression, an extended illness, and a new developmental stage that has made life hell for me since.I’m so tired and frustrated, I start to think I never should have married, let alone had a kid. I resent the pressure my wife put on me to marry. I’m angry at myself for not having the spine to break it off. I hate what my life has become. I don’t even know if any of this is how I truly feel or if it’s just the irrationality of sleep deprivation, stress, and frustration. I know I’m a lucky and really have a great life. I love my wife and we’ve been happy together.I become faux-suicidal. I don’t think I truly am, but I guess the thought gives me a warped sense of control.The stress, anger, anxiety, and depressed moods are taking a toll. I know I should probably seek counseling. But, I just....can’t. I feel like if I could just get sleep or some adult leisure time by myself while the baby sleeps, I would be in such a better place mentally. I don’t know that this warrants professional help. I recognize these middle-of-the-night thoughts as irrational and they aren’t really a factor throughout the day.Any experience with this? via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2H4MWUq