My five year old is beside herself after her father’s suicide. What do I do to help?

The father of my five year old daughter recently committed suicide. He was down on his luck, and thought the world would be better off without him.He was here the night before he died, and I knew he was upset, but I had no idea it was that bad. Part of me wonders what he was saying to her while he was here because he’d whisper to her, and I’d ask what they were talking about, and our baby would say “nothing, mommy.” And giggle.When he died, I took shirts from his house, and she wants to sleep in them every night. That was something they did when she spent the night, but I think it’s hurting her even more. She cries for him every night, and our once vivacious little girl just sobs and doesn’t want to get out of bed.We’ve watched the Sesame Street episode about Mr. Hooper, and I think that helped her understand he’s gone, but she’s devastated...I’m told most of his suicide note addressed me, but his mom blames me and won’t let me read it. That and his family really won’t help with her. I don’t care about myself, but my little baby is so sad. I tried to show her his picture the other day, and she covered it with her hands and started screaming and crying “no, no, no.” So I put it away.She was his little shadow and now she’s so upset. The closest child therapist is 2.5 hours away. What can I do to help her? via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2GPtRFB