
I don't mean to be a downer, but every now and then (not constantly or to the point of a phobia) I experience huge fear of my children dying. Whether it is after reading about a tragedy, watching medical dramas or SVU or even just in my own mind - It leaves me breathless and the fear is all encompassing.There is fear, but then there is the helplessness. I am mostly helpless to keep them completely safe. I can get them vaccinated, feed them well, put them in their car seats, teach them to swim, teach them to stay out of the street, teach them to make wise choices and keep an eye on them when I can - but after all that I know they are still mortal and could be taken from me by those things that are outside of my control.I know for a fact that I am not alone, but this is not something I was expecting when I decided to have kids! It is not talked about how being the parent, loving this child and being responsible for them can result in fear and helplessness. Being a mom has been a lesson in accepting I cannot control everything my child does or everything that my child experiences - I can create a safe, loving and nurturing environment, but they are separate from me now and outside of my control.Any one else experience this? I would love to hear your insights. via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2HYFbzA
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