Parenting with bipolar disorder?

This isn’t a post I wanted to make. I’m pregnant with my first son, and was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder.I don’t feel like a worthy parent anymore. I don’t feel like I have the capacity to be a good parent anymore. I feel like my son is going to hate me. One of my good friends’ mom has bipolar disorder, and her daughter hates her. They don’t speak, she doesn’t call her ‘mom’, she says her mom ruined her childhood. What if I do that to my son? What if I do something to hurt him? I’m already on my own. I don’t have parental support, I don’t have a spouse, my friends have been slowly drifting away from me. Before any of this, this was so perfect. And now I feel like I’m throwing my son into an awful situation that he’s going to hate.I’m sorry to wallow. I just don’t know what to do. I feel like nothing is going to be okay. I’m apprehensive to be medicated because there’s an apparent link to bipolar medications and birth defects, and I can’t do anymore to my son than what I’m already doing. I feel so swallowed by everything. People say that meds will make you feel normal, but I can’t do that. I can’t be normal, but I want to be normal. I don’t exactly know what I’m looking for. Maybe some commiseration? Help? Advice? via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2GNn2oz