I became pregnant at 17 due to the rest of date rape - I was given too many sleeping pills from a guy I'd been talking in a drink after refusing to sleep with him because I wasn't ready to do it. There are exceptions here for maternal life/rape/birth defects but it is very hard to get one for rape because you have to prove it and doctors are reluctant to 'agree' because they get interrogated about it was basically my word against his and the doctors were all 'she probably just took the sleeping pills to sleep, it is high school exam time, she was probably stressed'. I was too tired to really struggle much so he didn’t have to do much so no sign os struggle made them less likely to believe I was assaulted. His parents sent him hours away to 'protect' him from my ‘lies’.I wanted to put the baby up for adoption so I couldn't get on with my life because I didn't want to be a parent but my parents would have no piece of it. They said they'd take the baby and look after it because it is their grandchild and I could finish my education and not worry and live my life.I just finished school a few weeks ago and now the summer break is over they expect me to not go to University as planned and take on my responsibility to the baby, which is now 13 months old. I don't want to.My parents very much said me they were going to raise the baby for me, they never gave me an impression it was a temporary thing. If I knew they were just going to raise the baby for a year, I'd have followed through with adoption. I don't really feel anything for the baby - she's like a small sister but I was busy with study for my final year so had little to do with her. And to be honest, I resent i was forced to go through with being pregnant and give birth- I received a lot of judgement and I was always labelled stupid for getting pregnant even though it was not my fault. No one believed me when I said I was assaulted. She also caused a lot of damage to my body that will never be fixed which i resent because i never asked for this. I don't wish bad on the baby, but I don't want much to do with her.I don't know what my parents change is, but I wonder if now they are getting sick of the reality of having another baby when they were almost done - i am the youngest child of 2 and my brother is gay and I want to be a diplomat instead of having kids I guess they right have thought this was their only chance for a grandbaby but now they are sick of the caring for her. She is a difficult baby - fussier than normal I've been told. They love her very much but now I am old enough for uni I think they realise they could be going on holidays & having money - not dealing with a baby and want to make me take over so they can have the grandchild without the actual work of raising her. They keep sasying I’m an adult and I got to finish my education but is now time to face up to the responsibility because they let me finish school but I let myself get pregnant. Deep down, I don’t think they believe I was assaulted because I did text this guy a lot, and the sleeping pills were something I would use for my insomnia. But they are easy to get here and no doubt he got them easy too.How can I handle this? Am I in the right by saying it is not my responsibility because they agreed to take over the responsibility for me? How can I not get into trouble for neglect if they decide to jus dump the baby on me - we don't have safe haven laws here or something like that. Do I call their bluff and tell them i'll put her up for adoption if they make me take over (legally, I'm still the mother so can).tl;dr: Become pregnant at 17 after date rape, parents told me no to give up the baby because they'd raise it, I just turned 19 and finished school a few weeks ago & they want me to 'take responsibility' and take over raising the baby but i don't want to. via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2EIRFdh
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