Personal development vs kid time

Father of 3 (1, 3, 5 yrs). 33 yrs old. I've had this conflict for a while. I feel like I need to work on myself: body health, mental, spiritual, and have a lot of interest in these areas but I am lacking. I also want to teach my kids and encourage good habits in these three areas as well.However, I feel like often to do guided study/reading/drawing time and exercise time with them (the older two of course), I sacrifice my own personal development.BTW This is happening with a backdrop of looming divorce. So I really want to become the best I can physically, intelectually, spiritually I can for myself but also for my wife, who's seemed to have lost her love for me as she's said.Without telling him all this detail, a friend of mine whom I respect advised me to totally work on myself--that this is the time for it as the kids are so young . Then my other voice says if I don't have an organized study plan for the kids with exercise and reading from Quran (our holy book) etc, I'll be failing in my fatherly duties and maybe set them back. I am also really interested in homeschooling and my wife sometimes criticizes me for not sort of "proving" homeschooling concept to her with our kids.I hope at some point (maybe when kids are more like 7 or 8), I and the kids can do exactly the same things: kung fu workouts, studying biology, reading Quran, going on hikes, etc.I'm just wondering your opinions. And I would appreciate links to research about this. via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2t4JNAK