I hit my low point as a parent.

This is something that's been eating away at me for a few days. I have two wonderful kids who deserve the world and I hate that I can't give it to them. My oldest, her father is in jail for not paying child support and my youngest I get $50 a month from her sperm donor. I hate that my kids have the fathers they have but without those d-bags I wouldn't have my awesome kids.I struggle every day to make sure the bills are paid and that my kids have food to eat. I go without a lot to make sure they are taken care of. A few nights ago we were down to the bare bones. I didn't have anything to cook and no food banks were open. i had 8 dollars on my food stamp card and I had to stretch itI ended up stealing two packs of ground beef and a bag of rice. the whole time the items were in my purse I felt like I was going to puke. I was so afraid I was going to get caught and get arrested and my kids would be taken away from me. I guess I got lucky because no one said anything to me or stopped me. I felt so guilty and embarrassed because when I did finally check out, I didn't even have enough to cover what little groceries I was buying and had to put a gallon of milk back. I just felt so shitty and still do over itwhen we got home, I just cried. my oldest asked me what was wrong and I lied to her and told her I didn't feel good. I don't feel good about what I did. I feel like absolute shit over it. some poor employee at Walmart is going to end up losing their job because I can't even afford to get my children groceries. I can't afford to run the air conditioning because I don't know if I'll be able to pay the electric next month. I'm terrified my landlord won't keep working with me and there will be an eviction notice on the door next week. My kids need new clothes because they're growing out of everything and I can't even afford to buy my oldest a new pair of shoes. I feel like I'm drowning and I feel so so guilty over the fact I stole food so they could eat.I had to get this off my chest. I know I'm a shit person for this and I know karma will bite me in the ass later for it. I just want things to get better for us via /r/Parenting http://bit.ly/2Qf337a