I cried for the most selfish reason

I'm a stay at home mom and my husband is on a "business trip" this week. I say "business trip" because personally it seems more like a vacation. Its a golf tournament, so for 3 days he golfs during the day and at night he goes to the casino, drinks, and eats $200 steaks. I don't judge him for wanting to go, but god I'm so jealous. He's doing all this fun stuff and I'm stuck at home brushing teeth and wiping asses. I'm jealous but I was holding it together.That was until my husband called and told me that his coworker has an extra ticket to The Who tonight. My husband hardly even listens to The Who and he gets fucking free tickets! I'm stuck here breaking up a fight for the fourth time and he's going to see The Who. I love The Who! I've dreamed about seeing them live since I watched their Superbowl performance when I was a teenager. I just couldn't hold it together anymore and cried.I feel terrible about it, he's a great husband. He supported me when I was working and he supports me now that I'm not. I should be happy for him, but I just can't. I know this probably makes me a terrible wife. He just always gets to do these awesome trips with his work or goes out to get a few beers with work friends, while I'm stuck at home with the kids.I could get a job but it'll be call center or retail work, I got pregnant at 19 and have only ever worked retail. I don't have the experience nor the degree to get a good job. I've thought about going to school but I have no idea what I'd go for. I'm 27 and still have no idea what I want to be when I grow up.Also part of me honestly loves being a stay at home mom. I don't have to talk to people I can't stand. I can wear pajamas all day and cleaning can be therapeutic. But it's just so fucking lonely. I lost all my childless friends when I got pregnant. I lost all my work friends when I stopped working. I'm an anxiety ridden introvert so making friends is tough. All the mom groups in my area are full of mlm -pushing, anti-vaccinating, bible thumping, organic eating moms and I just don't fit in. I want to go on a mom-cation but don't want to go alone.So tonight my husband is going to see one of the greatest bands of all time and I'm going to scrounge up all the leftover Easter chocolate and cry myself to sleep.​TL;DR I'm selfish and terrible because I'm upset my husband is going to see The Who and I'm not. via /r/Parenting http://bit.ly/2VLVN3I