As a SAHM there are highs and lows. I love having the time with my toddler. Seeing her learn and grow. However, I find it so isolating and it is getting to me. Before having my child I had my own career, interests, hobbies, friends. It seems all those things have disappeared. I have my husband, but even then I feel lonely. My daily happenings or musings just don’t compare to others. I feel like I listen to everyone around me, but then my gripes and concerns are just muted because what problems can you have as a SAHM /s. I feel like I have no voice because I don’t have problems or stories worth mentioning. Sometimes when I respond to a friend or family after they have shared something they leave me on read. Then tonight I was talking to my husband about something I read online and he just picked up the TV remote and turned up the volume. In this moment it felt like everything just built up and I just exploded. And husband doesn’t seem to get it, he just simply says he has real world concerns and doesn’t care about what I’m reading or find amusing. I listen to him all the time and respond appropriately. He tells me I’m playing the victim. I hate that word so much. I just feel like I’m internally screaming because no one is listening. After becoming a mother it feels like nothing about me or my thoughts even matter because everything is trivial. The only person I matter to is my daughter. To everyone else I am Invisible. I don’t know what I’m looking for here, I’m very emotional about having nothing of substance to bring up to others anymore. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2PptKXM
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