This mom job is harder than I thought it would be...I need sleep

Hello fellow parents...some advice and comments would be appreciated. My daughter is going to be 15 months in 2 weeks and I thought that by now I would have it all together. I have always felt like super mom because through all my daily struggles I always manage to get dinner on the table, keep groceries in the fridge, keep the house pretty tidy and have fun being a mother. The biggest struggle has been sleep. I began co-sleeping about 6 months ago...it was never my plan but it became our way of life if I wanted to get a wink of sleep. I was up 6+ times a night to breastfeed our daughter. I would sit up in the bed and try my hardest to keep my eyes open so that when she drifted back to sleep I could quietly lay her back in her crib. And then that dreaded day came when I could not lay her back in the crib. No matter what I tried her eyes would open as wide as ever and she would begin to scream. My husband needed to go to work the next morning and we only have one room in our apartment so I began to nurse her laying down. This was incredible! We could both fall asleep and I didn't have to get out of bed to put her down. When she woke up again she was right beside me and I could easily nurse her back to sleep. But now it has become harder and harder as I am still getting woken up way to many times a night. I am not getting a solid sleep, I do not get rem sleep and I am so exhausted I cant even stand it anymore. When I tell others that I am tired I don't think they understand. I just turned down two job opportunities because I am so stressed about making this decision to go back to work that I had to say no. I am not ready to leave my baby and I can't work if we are both not getting sleep. Now to add to this, yesterday I got mastitis. Which is an infection in the breast tissue. So yesterday my daughter and I were both in tears, I was crying from the pain and exhaustion and I think I upset her when I cried of the pain. My husband had to take her from me so I could soothe my pain and calm down. I feel like I am losing the battle of being an amazing mom! I want to enjoy motherhood but it is seriously so difficult at times. I feel like mothers and even fathers never really share how difficult it can really be at times. So please...if you have any encouraging thoughts or similar stories to share with me I could really use it right now. I know I am not the only struggling mom out there. And I hope that my daughter and I can get on a good sleep schedule and move past this. via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2teXh9j