Pregnant and he cheated

He cheated on me when I was two and a half months. Literally a week after I told him statistically during Pregnancy was when your most likely to cheat, he promised he wouldn't be another statistic. Then I betrayed him and went through his messages I know this was wrong.I love him so much. But also get such strong waves of hatred and so turned off him I want to leave him. I hate it when he touches me but five minutes later I need him to touch me.I want to leave him so I cam move on from this state.I want to be happy and care free and focus on our baby. I am so fucking young and I hate him every day for lying to me and making me think he had my back. I wouldn't have kept this baby if he was honest with me.I blame him entirely if I don't love this child. Because everyday I'm more daunted of the future we will have together. I want to leave the country and I want to fuck around on him. But I wouldn't do that to my unborn.I bet all his and my friends think what a great guy sticking by you. But it was his choice too keep the baby, and he barely has the decency to celebrate it. He is so two faced it makes me want to scream. I fucking hate life. I don't want to keep pretending. via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2uNWiB7